I started off on blogspot then deleted it and went to this one.

Then, because some of my poetry and such are not saved on my computer, I decided to keep this one open but move to tumblr.

Tumblr didn’t work out for me well because I realized that a majority of people there just re-post pictures and witty sayings and such. People very rarely actually wrote posts…

But I had some poetry and things there too and decided to keep it but I moved to blogspot again.

I went through this period of time where I hardly used the computer at all, and now it’s summer and I would like to blog again and I thought, “What better site than WordPress?”

Then I realized that I already had a blog here but I wanted to start anew…

So now I’ve started another blog here called Overlapping Lines.

I’ll try to stick with that blog and that blog only…

But in the meantime perhaps I should stop cluttering the internet and delete my old blogs…

So this is my last blog post.

I will not be closing this blog however.

Bye!

Just listen to my actions.
Can you not hear them speak?
Comprehension without obstinacy
Is what we all should seek.

Just listen to my heartbeat,
To how it changes a lot.
It’s funny how you don’t give me
So much as a second thought.

Just listen to my emotions,
To how I feel each moment.
By doing so you’ll surly find
Most of my hidden dents.

Just listen to my interests,
To what I like to do.
Have you not figured out yet
That my schedule revolves around you?

Consider for one moment
What I do for all men.
So please, for one second,
Can you just listen?

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NOTE: This is not a love poem. “You” is being general.

You told me to listen,
But I didn’t want to,
So I did.
You push me over.

You told me to sit,
But I didn’t want to,
So I did.
Why push me over?

You made me hurt,
But I didn’t want to,
So I did.
Push me over.

You made me frown,
But I didn’t want to,
So I did.
Please push me over.

You made me pretend,
But I didn’t want to,
So I did.
They push me over.

I’m a push over,
But I don’t want to be,
So I am.

So push me over…
Because I’ll cry
When you’re asleep.

While returning home, Lancaster and Maltby were subjected to a “vicious mob attack” from “a large group of people” between 01:10 hours and 01:20 hours on Saturday, 11 August 2007, at the skate park area of Stubbylee Park, Bacup. The couple were walking home and came across a group of teenagers at the entrance to the park. The group followed them, but there was no trouble until some of them suddenly assaulted Robert Maltby without provocation. When he was knocked unconscious the gang attacked Sophie Lancaster, who was trying to protect him by cradling him in her arms. A 15-year-old witness told police: “They were running over and just kicking her in the head and jumping up and down on her head.” One distraught witness used a mobile to call for emergency services saying: “We need… we need an ambulance at Bacup Park, this mosher has just been banged because he’s a mosher.” Witnesses revealed that afterwards: “The killers celebrated their attack on the goths — or “moshers” – by telling friends afterwards that they had, “done summat [something] good,” and claiming: “There’s two moshers nearly dead up Bacup park — you wanna see them — they’re a right mess.” The injured couple were assisted by some of the teenagers who called emergency services, and then stayed with the couple and tried to tend their wounds. At the trial they were commended by the judge.

Police said soon afterwards it was, “a sustained attack during the course of which the pair received serious head injuries and their faces were so swollen we could not ascertain which one was female and which one was male.” Both were hospitalised as a result of the attack, initially at Rochdale Infirmary.[1] Maltby’s injuries left him in a coma with bleeding on the brain, but he gradually recovered over the next two weeks. Lancaster, in a deep coma, was moved to Fairfield Hospital in Bury, then to the Neurology unit at Hope Hospital in Salford. It became clear to hospital staff she would not recover from her injuries, and on 24 August 2007 her family agreed to switch off life support and she died.
links:

http://www.myspace.com/inmemoryofsophie?lite=0

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sophie_Lancaster

In August 2007, Sophie Lancaster was kicked to death, simply for dressing differently. Two years on, and in tribute to the outgoing, bubbly girl who was denied the chance to live life her way, cult new British make-up brand Illamasqua has commissioned a short film by award-winning French director, Fursy Teyssier.

Produced by creative agency Propaganda, in association with iconic British band, Portishead, Dark Angel is a beautifully haunting rendition of Sophies story.

The aim of the film is to raise awareness of The Sophie Lancaster Foundation and generate £500,000 to help educate young people about tolerance. Since Sophies death, weve been working with behavioural experts Huthwaite International, to put together an interactive youth workshop that does just that.

But this essential education programme can only be delivered with your help.

Please, please show your support watch the film and make a donation.

Were hoping to reach over 1,000,000 hits, so forward the link and help us spread the message. If you have your own website, blog, Facebook, MySpace or You Tube page, or a Twitter profile, please display a link to the film. For added impact, download a specially designed web banner at www.illamasqua.com/sophie/ now.

As well as being available to view online, the film will also be running for a week on MTV from 26th November Sophie’s birthday.

Stand up for Sophie act now and buy an Illamasqua Sophie pencil, wristband or make a donation.

Together, well help stamp out prejudice, hatred and intolerance everywhere

video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1DkNaZUA3AU

link:

http://www.myspace.com/brian_deneke_tribute

This laziness is also the reason why these things are not getting done. The solution to laziness? Defy it. Banish it. Do things you want to do but do not feel like doing at the moment. Do things you need to do but do not feel like doing at the moment. This laziness stimulates procrastination, and procrastination may make you feel all happy and relaxed now, but as soon as the deadline comes nearer, you will panic.

Another thing: deadlines. Having a deadline helps tremendously. Even though you may use the famous “I have plenty of time” saying, simply knowing that you must get something done by a certain time sometimes–not always–makes you do things. If you find yourself using that famous saying, push the deadline closer. Even though it may actually be due many weeks later, finishing something earlier rather than later leaves time for you to relax and be anxious-free. You may even get a head start on another project. Sure, breaks are good, but you should always have something to do. Do something for fun, like writing a novel. And then you can have your work and/or school projects.

What to do? Make a schedule. Fit everything you need and want to accomplish into this schedule and the most important part: follow through! What is the point of making a schedule if you are not going to use it?! How do you decide what should go in and what should not? That will be talked about. Here are the steps and tips for accomplishing your goals and feeling utterly better about yourself and life.

Step 1: Distinguish between the needs and the wants.

Make a list. Find out what is absolutely necessary and what is not. Necessities include things that are necessary for daily function. Wants include things that you can live without. Sometimes you may feel a need to do something, but be careful, because it actually might be a want disguising itself as a need to attract attention.

My Needs:

1. Sleep more
2. Eat 3 meals a day
3. Exercise
4. Do school work

My Wants:

1. Finish my novel
2. Sleep earlier/wake earlier
3. Get A’s in all classes

Step 2: Categorize what type of goals they are.

Is it a year-round goal? A lifetime goal? Or a goal that can be achieved in a matter of months? It is important to categorize so that you can find out what is more important and what is not. Sometimes, the couple-of-months goal would come first. You would take steps everyday to accomplish it, while you may take steps every week or month to accomplish the others, depending on the goal.

My Categorization:

1. Finish my novel -  couple-of-months goal
2. Sleep earlier/wake earlier – lifetime goal
3. Get all A’s – yearly goal

Step 3: Identify the priority in the wants.

You should not be finding the priority in the needs because no matter what, all of those should go in the schedule. Not every want can go in, though, depending on how many you have. Distinguishing what the most important is depends on what you would like to do more, how long it should take you to accomplish it, et cetera.

My Priority: finishing my novel

Step 4: Make the schedule

While making the schedule, you should consider each thing that is going to be in it. When can you do them? What times are most appropriate? Do not forget that unexpectancies may pop up from time to time and do not get upset when something else comes up. Simply make up for it later, or continue where you left off. Do not overload you schedule! It is best to do it weekly, and set a time to come up with the next week’s on the weekends. You do not want to plan too much ahead. Also, do not forget to allow breaks everyday.

Step 5: Follow through

Your schedule is complete, now what? Follow through. It is simple as that. It may be hard at first because you might want to do something else, but just do what the schedule says. You made it, so you follow it.

As long as you allow breaks throughout the day, you should not feel overwhelmed. Also, time your breaks. It may be hard to stop doing whatever you where doing during the break, so will yourself to do it. I know it may sound corny, but will is a powerful thing. As long as you set your mind to a certain task, you can do it. As long as you believe you can, you can.

P.S. If you are a technology freak, you may want to set aside a certain time each day to check your e-mail and blog, et cetera. It should be no longer than an hour though.

P.P.S. If you are doing something that involves the computer, close your Internet browser and keep it close. If you need the Internet, do not open any other tabs or windows not pertaining to the task.

Why must you look at me that way?
Is your silent criticism words you can’t say?
Your thoughts I definitely don’t deserve,
Yet they’re something you preserve.

I hate that look you love to give.
Please leave me alone and let me live!
Haven’t you realized I’m in control?
If something goes wrong, I’ll pay the toll.

These are my wants, my decisions!
For once, will you consider my position?
I’m the director: I run the show,
And if you don’t like it, you can surly go.

I won’t hold you back; please, go ahead.
Say all the things that need to be said.
I won’t interrupt if you speak your mind.
Just don’t forget: we’re both the same kind.

You’re not higher, neither am I.
And unlike you, I do not lie.
I never order, and I don’t judge,
But I can hold a serious grudge.

Want to be on my bad side? Be my guest.
I’ll take up your offer without a request.
Want to be on my good side? You’ll have to try hard.
Otherwise to me, you’re just some lard.

Living, breathing, taking up space?
If you want me to, I’ll think you’re waste!
Cursed, wretched, filthy and poor?
When you need me most, don’t knock on my door!

How can you think such things of me
When I think of you equally?
Why do the good attract the bad?
Don’t say I’m wrong: I surly had.

Love me and I’ll love you back.
Hate me and I might attack.
I don’t care if I win or lose,
‘Cause in the end, we’ll just hit snooze.

Is this some type of game to you?
This is my life. Is that something new?
I hope you know that I don’t care.
Defy me, if you dare.

I don’t do what you do to me.
This is unfair. Can’t you see?
I don’t want to hear your silence.
But I must say: I don’t care hence.

No longer shall I care one bit.
If I must, on you I’ll spit.
I won’t cry a silent tear.
Defy me, if you dare.

Shadows on the grass. (Ignore the date, it is incorrect.)

Trees are my favorite types of plants. My definite favorite would have to be the weeping willow. I especially love the colossal trees, though, and the ones draped in vines.  I can definitely understand why the Greeks came up with dryads, also known as tree nymphs. Trees seem to have character. They can appear dreary, desolate, hopeless, happy, alive, tranquil. I love trees’ rough bark. I love the different leaves and the branches… Everything about a tree screams, “Notice me!” And if you do not notice it, you are committing a serious crime.

If only you could have stood next to this tree… It was astounding…

My next favorite thing in nature would definitely be water. It can have two sides to it–disastrous or helpful (I mentioned this in my novel.) My favorite state of water would have to be rough. It is like a goddess wreaking destruction: devastatingly beautiful. When water is calm, I love to see the little ripples. I love clear water; seeing into its depths are enthralling. One thing I like about seas are the shore. I love the shore because I like to see the water flow to it, then ebb back. I like to see that brief but not uncommon moment where the water makes the loud gushing sound of a wave crashing down. I like to feel the back and forth motion of the water… But then, simultaneously, I am terribly afraid of this thing I love.

Calm and very clear water

Flowers are truly a beauty, though they are third on my list of favorite nature beauties. Flowers come in all shapes, sizes, and colors, which makes it easy for there to be a flower for everyone. My favorite flower is the ixia (hence my name). Flowers are pleasing to the eyes and nose. Though some are scentless, they are still beautiful. Though I am also terribly afraid of wasps and bees, it is completely natural–beautiful even–to see a bee buzzing near a flower, searching for pollen.

The bundle was naturally like this on the tree.

This was not enhanced. It was taken with the Macro setting on my camera.

There are many other things in nature that simply catch your eye…

A huge, naturally made and placed boulder.

Heart-shaped leaves. Also taken with Macro.

And then of course, there is the sky. One reason why I like it here on this tiny island is because it is always humid, so the sky has plenty of water to make unique shapes with.

The sun was near setting and it was peeking out from the tree.

My favorite sunset ever. It is simply beautiful.

I particularly like this one because of the clash of the grey clouds and the white one.

Do nature a favor. Notice it.

My science teacher told me these rocks naturally became like this. Nature does some amazing things.

(All pictures taken by me. Images may be subject to copyright.)

One day, I went to a class. This class was taught by one of my current teachers, and two of my current classmates–both females–also went to this class (for reasons unknown). The teacher took attendance. The class was full–exactly–except there was one seat all the way in the corner that was unoccupied. It seemed strange to me. The next day, I was in the class again. Everyone was chatting merrily. The teacher took attendance. She read off the names while looking down, then, following the name-”here” rhythm, she said, “Daniel Radcliffe,” and he rose his hand (instead of saying “here”, apparently not wanting to attract attention). Then, she paused and said, “Wait. Daniel Radcliffe?” She looked directly at him, surprised, and he rose his hand slightly. He had attracted attention. One of the aforementioned classmates, shot up out of her chair. And it sort of ended there.

Now, I had heard that dreams tell you things, that they are the unconscious messages of desire from the mind to the mind. Strangely enough though, dreams are sometimes so complicated that you cannot retrieve its ambiguous message. As a matter of fact, you are left more confounded than before you attempted to analyze the Ambiguous Dream, you are left with more questions and less answers than before you started questioning the Ambiguous Dream, and you have learned absolutely nothing from the Ambiguous Dream, which–when thinking about It– makes you even more frustrated, angry and curious than before. I know this is certainly true for me.

On an attempt to analyze my Ambiguous Dream, I started off by thinking about the possible “desires” this Dream could be suggesting. First of all, maybe I have an unconscious desire to meet Daniel Radcliffe? (For those of you who do not know, he plays Harry Potter in the Harry Potter movies.) Though I never really cared about him so much that I wanted to meet him. I simply think that he did a great job of acting and if anything, I would congratulate him with a simple “Congratulations”. Next, maybe I wanted to take a class with that teacher? I know that I definitely am going to take a (not required) class with her next year… But it is Forensics and I find the subject very cool, for lack of a better word. In the Dream, it never got past the attendance of the first and second day. As soon as the attendance was taken, time skipped to the next day’s attendance. So, obviously, I have no idea what class she was teaching (and why Daniel Radcliffe would take a 9th grade Science class anyway…).

What I did next was identify the familiar things and the odd things. One familiarity was my two classmates. Another was that one of the classmates–the one who did not stand up–was wearing the same thing she was wearing today in school, minus one thing. Another was the classroom (which is set up like a lab because it is a Science classroom and we do labs occasionally), and that that was the teacher’s classroom. One odd thing was the setup of the room. The lab stations were gone, and the tables that occupy the front were vertical instead of horizontal. She took attendance from the back instead of the from the front, like she does everything, and she took attendance (meaning she normally does not–no teacher does it out loud anymore once past the first couple of days). The odd thing that really bemused me was that the classmate who stood up does not have an infatuation with Daniel Radcliffe. She does not care much about the movies (or books) and is more of a Twilight fan than Harry Potter. Why did she stand up? Why not the other classmate who has read all the books and seen all the movies that are currently out? I know she does not have an infatuation with Daniel Radcliffe either, but still, it would have made much more sense. Was the Dream possibly suggesting that there are things friends are hiding from you? Things you do not know, and might find out in the strangest way possible?

Dreams are crazy, yet interesting at the same time. I would definitely like to learn more about them. And the analyzing techniques stated above are simply what I think makes the most sense when curious about what your dreams are possibly indicating. I have not gotten it from some website or book, so I am not sure if it is the most efficient way. Hopefully it will work for you, but clearly, my techniques have failed me for this Dream. Normally I do not remember so much of the dream when I decide to analyze it, but I just woke up and immediately started blogging it, so I remembered the (seemingly) important parts. I once thought of keeping a dream journal. And it is not such a bad idea, considering that immediately writing down this Dream helped me analyze it better (but get more confused!).